So by some miracle of nature I'm actually graduating. I mean, wow. Seeing as how I've missed so much school for personal reasons/illness/car crash, I thought I would be held back but by some miracle I've managed to make it to my second semester of senior year and I'm going to graduate like... what?
And with that comes prom and all that good senior stuff. I got asked to prom. That was weird. I have a boyfriend but this kid asked me anyway and he was going to pay for my ticket so why the hell not right?
And that means dress shopping and I'm just super confused like what the hell am I even doing?
I'm scared about moving to another state and going to college all on my own. I've accepted my acceptance and I'm going. There's no other way around it but I'm starting to doubt my ability to fend for myself? Like, I'm going to be completely on my own.
Granted, this isn't the first time on my own and last time I was left on my own I had two little siblings to look after and an alcoholic mom to deal with so me just taking care of myself shouldn't be so hard.
But I don't know. I've been working so I know what jobs are like. And I got my license (again) so there's no issue with that. I have my own car and I have a decent sum of money saved up to live off of until I can get a job out in Texas and secure myself.
But the thought of adulting on my own and being completely independent is horrifying and I'm not really sure I'm ready for that yet. Like, its going to happen and I need to suck it up and deal but it still scares me.
IDK how to cope with this.
Tue Apr 07, 2015 1:50 am by MadHattersPassion