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Subject: Dear Miss Problematic {A small rant by Rinny} Mon Sep 03, 2012 5:57 pm
It's called "Wanna Die?" by Hatsune Miku. I can relate to Miku in this song a lot sadly, especially when I was in middle school. Lots of my friends talked about doing suicide and lots of them slit their wrists. I was always the person w ho asked them why they did that, comforted them, and expressed worry. Well, when I caught them that is, not a lot of them liked to tell me things.
But you know what, being the person time after time of seeing your friends hurt themselves is tiring. I just didn't know what to say for advice is a serious situation as yours, so I just said regular things like "You shouldn't do that." (and I seriously meant that, of course). I didn't know what to do other than say words that you didn't even take seriously.
Quote :
"You just don't understand."
Yeah, that's right -- I don't because I've never been in your situation but I could try. But how can I even do that if you don't tell me anything? You're too stub born.
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"Nobody really cares. I have no choice if people won't listen."
I listen. I even say so, but you never listen. You're a selfish person. How do yo u think my life will be like if you're not by my side? If I can't see you anymore? How do you think I feel when you say you're going to die by your own hands?
You're a selfish person. Do you think about how you're affecting others like m e? I just don't know anymore what I can say to you. And it's getting to the pin to where I don't really care as much as I used to. So, if you're playing around t hen stop you sick person. If it's not a act then why don't you let me tell you that I'm worried about you when you're crying that nobody cares? Just shut up an d stop crying. I'm sick of your crap.
I know I'm a hypocrite because I do somethin similar when I'm depressed. But could you stop please? For just one moment? I can't stand you crying and hurting anymore. Let out a smile and be happy please? For my selfish sake?
Subject: Re: Dear Miss Problematic {A small rant by Rinny} Mon Sep 03, 2012 6:32 pm
You know what, Rinny? I know exactly how you feel and I felt the same way when I first heard this song a few weeks ago.
Story time! I was e-buddies with someone a few years ago who was apparently depressed, had been abused and felt suicidal. She'd whine and be all morose on me everyday, including in our roleplays no matter how fun I'd try to make them. No matter how much I asked her what was wrong or told her that she could talk to me, that I may not have any advice but would be willing to listen she'd give me bullshit responses time and again. Apparently she did try to commit suicide at one point but she lived down the road from a hospital and lived. It got to the point where I just got fed up with her and her selfish acts and being so self-involved that she didn't realize I was trying to help. We dropped contact a few years ago and she contacted me on MySpace once a few months back only to disappear again off the face of the internet.
In sort, it's okay to be a little selfish sometimes. Especially when the person or people are only taking and taking from you.
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Subject: Re: Dear Miss Problematic {A small rant by Rinny} Mon Sep 03, 2012 6:53 pm
Half-Truth [ Memory ] wrote:
You know what, Rinny? I know exactly how you feel and I felt the same way when I first heard this song a few weeks ago.
Story time! I was e-buddies with someone a few years ago who was apparently depressed, had been abused and felt suicidal. She'd whine and be all morose on me everyday, including in our roleplays no matter how fun I'd try to make them. No matter how much I asked her what was wrong or told her that she could talk to me, that I may not have any advice but would be willing to listen she'd give me bullshit responses time and again. Apparently she did try to commit suicide at one point but she lived down the road from a hospital and lived. It got to the point where I just got fed up with her and her selfish acts and being so self-involved that she didn't realize I was trying to help. We dropped contact a few years ago and she contacted me on MySpace once a few months back only to disappear again off the face of the internet.
In sort, it's okay to be a little selfish sometimes. Especially when the person or people are only taking and taking from you.
Thank you!
I used to have a friend that I made in the fifth grade in the same middle school, she was ny very first true friend. I gave her lots if my time and got her gifts like clothes and jewelry and all that stuff. However, she got depressed about this guy who dumped her. It was a surprise for me because I never saw her so sad and I didn't know what to do. So, I just told her hat he wasn't right for her and that she deserved better. She only gave a glare at me so then I'd just sit next to her silent and I saw that she had cuts on her wrist (which made me ask her why she was cutting and that I was worried on the path she was going on). So, she told me to stop and that'd I'd never understand her and she started hanging out with other people. I would try to be with her again but her friends didn't like me I guess.
Ever since then, I've noticed that lots of my friends in middle school cut themselves. I would ask them what's the point of it but they'd always get mad like I was committing heresy wheni asked them... Sorry for worrying about your well-being, I'd always think.
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Subject: Re: Dear Miss Problematic {A small rant by Rinny} Mon Sep 03, 2012 6:54 pm
Rin Rin Signal wrote:
It's called "Wanna Die?" by Hatsune Miku. I can relate to Miku in this song a lot sadly, especially when I was in middle school. Lots of my friends talked about doing suicide and lots of them slit their wrists. I was always the person w ho asked them why they did that, comforted them, and expressed worry. Well, when I caught them that is, not a lot of them liked to tell me things.
But you know what, being the person time after time of seeing your friends hurt themselves is tiring. I just didn't know what to say for advice is a serious situation as yours, so I just said regular things like "You shouldn't do that." (and I seriously meant that, of course). I didn't know what to do other than say words that you didn't even take seriously.
Quote :
"You just don't understand."
Yeah, that's right -- I don't because I've never been in your situation but I could try. But how can I even do that if you don't tell me anything? You're too stub born.
Quote :
"Nobody really cares. I have no choice if people won't listen."
I listen. I even say so, but you never listen. You're a selfish person. How do yo u think my life will be like if you're not by my side? If I can't see you anymore? How do you think I feel when you say you're going to die by your own hands?
You're a selfish person. Do you think about how you're affecting others like m e? I just don't know anymore what I can say to you. And it's getting to the pin to where I don't really care as much as I used to. So, if you're playing around t hen stop you sick person. If it's not a act then why don't you let me tell you that I'm worried about you when you're crying that nobody cares? Just shut up an d stop crying. I'm sick of your crap.
I know I'm a hypocrite because I do somethin similar when I'm depressed. But could you stop please? For just one moment? I can't stand you crying and hurting anymore. Let out a smile and be happy please? For my selfish sake?
It's sad because, I used to be like this a few years ago and I still can be like this but not as much. I never used to try to kill myself or cut though. I was just constantly negative and a bore to be around. I used to think about what I didn't have. I used to feel like I didn't get to experience other things that teens did because I was very sheltered.
But then I heard this story about a guy who always worked for his future and dwelled in his past but never once thought about the present. He unexpectedly died in a car crash and he never really got to live. That was it. Over. Gone. He never made it out of his teenage years; it was a shame because he spent most of his effort working towards something that never came and then I realised that I should get off the computer and go live the best I can with what I DO have.
And I started noticing little but beautiful things that I should be thankful for. And now I'm much happier.
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